I'm so tired. Tired of uni, tired of trying, tired of thinking and sick of hopes. Sometimes I can actually feel myself fading away.
Screw this! What the hell was I thinking anyway!?? Was I just trying to screw myself over by getting my hopes up? Its so blatantly clear and was right from the beginning. I give up. Totally give up. I'm not trying any more. I'm over being the only one who ever tries. Everyone knows I'm all alone, but people coming at me trying to use me, fool me. All the lies. I'm so tired of them. Tired of trying to work out what's real and what's not. Who's lying and who actually cares. It's too much. Why can't everyone just be real? Why can't everything be straightforward? Black and white. I hate grey. Life is grey. I despise grey... I'm better than this. Better than all of this. You. I don't need you. I don't need anyone.
I think life just punched me in the face. Ok ok I get it, I've already told you I give up....... can I have my life back now??
