So October wasn’t too kind to me after all.. It wasn't all I'd hoped it to be and the spring air didn't make any of my wishes come true. I guess in a sense it was even harder than September; not in the same head on rough way but in a silent, suffering kind of way. But again a new month is almost upon us and summer is almost here and this time I can feel that it is going to be an amazing month. Things are slowly getting better, slowly but definitely getting better. Not in the way I'd imagined it would at the beginning of this month, with a new month and a fresh start, I guess that was very unrealistic of me to believe that everything could just change so suddenly and I could forget the past, but in a healing way, like bruises do and i feel like I'm finally almost there; my dark purplish blue tinge is almost gone. There's definitely a lot going on this month so a lot to look forward to and enjoy. Melbourne cup's starting it off on Tuesday then I'm off to Brisbane, it's my birthday then foreshore music festival the weekend after. Lots of opportunities for fun and change and simply time spent with people that matter.
So this time i can say with a realistic voice, November please be kind to me. Although i don’t really need to ask this time anyway, because I wont allow it hurt me nonetheless.
