My life’s a mess; I’m in need of some structure.
Things I need to do:
Drink more water. I really need to drink more full stop. But then when I do I always have cordial or something. I need to get used to drinking just water and at least 8 glasses a day.
Fix my sleeping pattern. I go to sleep no earlier than 2am and am death in the morning, usually sleeping half the day and missing uni classes.
Fix my eating pattern. Because I sleep in I miss out on breakfast then I’m too lazy or not hungry and end up eating nothing. I’ve found I’ve developed a bad habit of checking the cupboard and fridge and if there’s nothing I instantly feel like eating, I just don’t eat. Yesterday I ate one crumpet all day and the day before I had a banana and then later 2 bottles of jack followed by a single sausage sandwich at a mate’s bbq. It’s so unhealthy and must stop.
Do more exercise. Ever since I’ve moved back from Jindy I’ve done very little physical activity and I think it’s making me down. I miss bmxing and I want to get fit for summer so need to go to the gym, go for a run, kick the footy, skateboard, anything!
Get out of my hermit rut. So I’m not fully a hermit, I still meet up with people more than most but I’ve started preferring to just stay at home for days on end rather than doing something with my life or socialising with friends. It’s like sometimes I can’t be bothered getting ready or be bothered talking to anyone at all. This is unlike me so must come to an end.
Get a job. I am literally BROKE! I was living off money saved up at Jindy and my tax return but the other weekend I got 2 speeding fines ($400 in total) and now I can barely live. I can’t travel where I want cause I can’t afford petrol. Can’t afford to do things such as movies, zoo, lunch out, drinks out, and not to mention fashion; I’m about to die! So I need a job fast!
Do my uni work. Yes it’s an obvious one and one I always struggle with. Biggest procrastinator ever and I’m slowly starting to put things off like I always do. I really can’t afford to get behind.
Live life now and not wait for the future. It’s sad and embarrassing to say but lately I’ve just spent days in my room doing nothing in particular at all. Sleeping, sorting, writing crap, just lying on the floor etc. I don’t write back to people when they ask what I’m up to and am just wasting life cause there’s nothing to be excited about or nothing much going on. I’m just not motivated in the slightest to do anything. It’s horrible. I need to make sure I make something out of every day. It’s annoying cause as you can see I have so much to do but I just do nothing. Go walk around the lake, visit a friend I haven’t seen in ages, get that job, paint, exercise. I always have someone asking me to do something so why don’t I go? Wow I need to fix my life.
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